Come Self, awake (sestina)

I can’t believe that I am still awake
and not anywhere close to finished.
Once my work has completed its self
all I want is for morning to come
so I can hand it in for credit
and move on to the next.

I don’t want to do this! What’s next?
That class—as if only I stay awake
but if I did, then he’d give me more credit.
It’s not too early to be finished
with the project. Just waiting for him to come
So I can be more of myself.

Now wait. Why is he not his self
today? The only step we can do next
is to see what this will become.
We need to be awake
to the possibility it cannot be finished.
We’re gonna finish so we get credit.

There is no way I believe his credit
score is low. Him and his self
only will have to be finished
with this or next
I’ll be laying awake
waiting for him to come

home back to me where they come
to collect what he owes, his credit.
How was he not awake
and let this happen? He’s not his self
at all. I don’t understand what’s next
going to happen. It needs to be finished

although it feels as if it could never be finished,
not between him and them, now that they’ve come
and want all their dues next
because it isn’t his credit
but theirs and they only care about self.
They don’t lay awake.

I will awake my husband until it is finished.
I don’t care for myself but it has to come
to an end, this credit, or else he is next.